The history of my love life

I miss him

It's been two weeks since I've seen him or heard from him. I know I should get over him for cheating on me, but I feel so weak. He was the most wonderful person I met that it's so hard to believe that he took my heart and broke it into pieces. All my buddies kept telling me to let it go and just think of it that what he did to me will come back to him tenfold. I can't help it, but I do miss him so much. I miss the things we do together. I miss sleeping next to him and waking up with him. I miss it when we play like where still little kids.
I think about him every second of the day. He was such a sweetheart. Before, whenever I'm cooking him something to eat, he would just come up behind me and hug me and tell me that he loves me. I miss everything. I still carry a picture of us in my wallet. I know I'm just hurting myself by doing that, but there's a special place for him in my heart, even though, he broke my heart. I know it's stupid.
Since the break up, my life haven't been the same. I no longer sleep in the room that we used to share. I left it as it is. I would go in the room sometimes, but everytime I walk in, I can still smell him and it makes me get all emotional, so I try not to go in too much. I wish I could just wake up out of this nightmare. I miss him so much. My appetite hasn't been the same. I can't eat anymore. I think I'm getting more depress. That's why I hang out with my friends because at this point, I am so lonely that I might end up getting crazy. In a way, I wish he would come back to me. Although, I'm afraid to be with him because he might cheat on me again.
I'm crazy about him. I don't know if he even knew how I felt about him. He said he can feel how I felt about him, but I don't understand why he left me. I asked him what I did wrong and he said that it's not me, it's him. He just can't be satisfied enough. I'm still in love with him and I wish I wasn't because it's tearing me up that I no longer have him in my life. When we were together, I was the most happiest person in the world. I was being treated like a queen. But my world crumbled when he cheated on me. I wish he didn't do that. I wouldn't be how am now. I miss him.