Moniek Nodaikmo itzit Hiapnoduav

Scary

Okay, scroll down to the rest of my blog entries and tell me if you think I'd be fit to go to a youth leadership thingamabobber. I don't think I am and can't comprehend why, for the second year in a row, I've been invited to represent Ohio at one!

I wouldn't be the only one from Ohio, but still!

I would go, were the sessions not for a week at a time and out-of-state and costing a few thousand dollars, but that's just a bit ridiculous and doesn't fit into my schedual at all. Not to mention the fact that they'd be expecting me to be a responsible and mature, focused individual.

As if.

It's not like I am overtly irresponsible or immature, but I have a hard time seeing myself placed under either category. And focussed? I don't like myself when I'm focussed because I can't see anyone or anything around me. I see a goal and a way to get there. I'm not a good person when focussed.

I don't know...