Carpe Diem

the pursuit of oblivion part 2

Ok... So as I was saying.
This crush type thing that was going on was a little bit scary to me.
And now that it has turned into a relationship it has been scaring me a little bit more. I really think that this guy is decent and nice and really very perfect.
Is anyone really this perfect? And this is what I wanted of course and now I am scared to death of it. It is always like this. Grass be greener on the other side.
What I find so facinating about him is that he just took five intentional years off dating and while he just did date someone else, that didn't last past a few weeks and now here he is with me... who didn't end up taking the time that I wanted.
He took five intentional years off of getting laid.
Why?
He was hurt in a previous relationship. That has to be a lot of hurt.
Anyway, so now I have him and I am wondering if he is in that "I want to settle down" mode.
hmmm. Settling down. All of the world's mixed emotions come from that thought.
I realize that it has been like a week and so I am not taking this that seriously. I am scared though in the way that I am thinking.