What a wonderful world!

Let's think Positively :)

Ok, let's think positively. Though this stupid pain is still killing me, (well, this is continuing for the last 10 years) It also has some advantages as well. Its no use brooding over what I don't have, rather its wise to try and enjoy life within my constaints.

It is true, that sometimes my blood just whispers to me: I won't flow! And the circulation comes to a dead end from which it can't find its actual path. Then when the blood again "decides" to flow, it just creates a "shiver" in my foot, and the pain goes away.

But on the other hand, the uncertainity (I can never predict how my day will start) helps me to see a new sun every day, this is what makes life so challenging. If I continue to think negatively, my world will turn colourless. No, I can't let that happen at any cost.

If Allah Allmighty wanted me to die, I would never come out of the incubator. But I did, and I'm still breathing. Really don't know what, but there must be a purpose for which I'm still living.

It is true, that I hardly get out of my house (except for going to college and shopping) but perhaps this time at home gives me the opportunity to develop my writing and my other artistic skills. Maybe I can even increase my study time if I try to.

It is true, that I never went out of my city for the last 12 years, my passport is still brand new and totally blank, I never even got a chance to visit my neighbouring country, India, like many of my friends did.

Back in 1998, when this killer pain first started (I used to suffer only after walking long distances before 98) I could do classes in school for five long hours, and none could tell that I was in pain. In fact, I tried to comfort others despite being uncomfortable. I could also continue ECA (extra carricular activities) quite actively.Even the principal used to encourage me.

Well, I didn't change that much in these years. Even now, If I don't show or tell, none can guess that I'm in pain. Moreover, my foot looks normal. It is not twisted or anything of that sort. I know, there are many others with twisted body parts.

Being born like this was not my fault. So why should I punish myself? I have the right to live.

I know, that at 23 I am supposed to be at the end of university. But I'm still in college, studying with juniors because of the long course of treatment, that snatched away 5 long years of my life.But that was for my own good. The treatment now helps me to walk better than before.

I have two little angels around me to brighten up my days. There are many people who don't even get that pleasure, despite being fond of children.

I have got the internet connection, which can bring the world into my fists. Many rural people in our country don't choose to take computer studies in their school level, only because they don't have a proper computer lab. The rural teenagers are really tallented, and some of them are very passionate about computers. My cousin, who's a very bright 20 year old, could not take computer in college, only because of the lab problem.

When I was 12, I wrote an adventure story series that got published in a well known local daily newspaper. The editor told me to continue the series, but I couldn't because of my studies. Maybe I can write some other series in another paper. There are many talented writers in my country, who don't even get the chance to publish.

I'm a student here as well. I'm part of the

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and I have a lot of pending lessons. Gotta catch up on that. I also found out a children's contest:

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for which I'll write a story.

This is one of my favorite contests, and I'm gonna write for the current round:

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Have to clean up the spider abode to practice more music. Have to use my colours as well. Studies... well... I can never forget that. Results? I don't know.

Ok, that makes a lot of work, I am walking again...so gotta go finish em. Killer pain? Try to kill me as much as you want to, but I won't die!

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