What a wonderful world!

WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!

Footache, temporary paralysis, declining grades, lack of concentation, I'm sunk in a huge pool of tears. It's really hard to keep smiling. I'm getting late for class every day because of the heavy traffic congestion, I'm getting hurt everyday, no matter how careful I am. Just how do I prove to my computer instructor that I really enjoy his subject, that I understand everything he says? Cause my grades don't reflect that.

Last class he asked me to explain my assignment in front of the whole class, but two of the most difficult works for me are 1. Standing for a long time and 2. walking for a long time. But I enjoy doing both of these, as I like accepting challenges that comes my way.

I had to stand for a long time that day, but though I understood, I could not perform properly in the quiz. Don't know what my grade is. And why did I fail to perform well? because standing for a long time caused serious footache, and now I can't walk properly either. I had a feeling that I might fell down while explaining, and if that happened, people would burst out laughing.

I missed my math class test, have to submit an application for a retake. But don't know if my instructor would accept that. Sickness is pulling me down, really down. But I think I can gather the strength to rise up again. I just don't wanna give up, no matter what happens!