Internal musings and thoughts

Little particle

         I'm frustrated by the reality of where my life has come to.  I haven't reached a lot of my goals for

various reasons.  This hiccup has given me a mindset that my life hasn't been very rewarding or fulfilling.  I

feel like a little particle in this enormous world that has nothing interesting to say.  My mind is always

working trying to create ideas but they always fail.  There's always some barrier that rears it's ugly head

pushing me back, way back. 

         I'm a college graduate, family man and employed yet I don't consider this as a ticket of success.  I

own a photo business looking to turn a profit so I can say goodbye to the two jobs that currently take up a

lot of my time.  The sad fact is that limited monetary resources are tripping me up.  I don't have any extra

money to invest; therefore, all my goals are floundering.  I want to accomplish so much but I can't seem to

reach that point. 

         I wish I could snap my fingers and all my goals would be accomplished.  I feel that my life has been

dealt the bad deck of cards.  I'm not beaten down yet since my willpower is telling me to push on.  I'm not

going to let my current situation stifle my motivation.  I will prove to myself that I have what it takes. 

         Starting fresh with a new perspective is the charge I need to accomplish my goals.  Hey, look at

that.  I can check off goal number one:  get motivated.