Masquerade

Dreams come rarely
Still alive barely
Life's flavor is found to be bland
Enslaved with transition from boy to man

Sadness and joy I have born in the same soul
Deceptive karma; for the good I do, evil ten-fold
Perhaps I have fallen to strong illusion
Hope: the most powerful of this delusion

Each morning with a yawn awake
Wonder if today the earth will shake
Does an epiphany lie hidden in this dawn?
Will I finally evolve into king from pawn?

A pulse is all you need to verify life
Tears and wisdom exemplify strife
From birth I've felt destined for greatness
From age I've learned that this is heinous

Why me above anyone on life's list?
Admittedly I am a bold narcissist
Pride has held me up at peak in my spirit
Torn a hole there and now I strongly fear it

Humble and weary I cling to my secret
A once upon a time dream; sworn to keep it
Looking at me you wouldn't know
That buried inside I've a lot to show

Walk the streets as a peasant, constantly beg pardon
Hide ambition effectively through my dim-witted jargon
Time and time again is performed this charade
So that even I have fallen to the masquerade