Betrayal

The blade cuts into me. I want you to feel it, feel my pain, and see what you've done. Can you feel it? You did this to me. You hurt me. How could you?... How could you? I wanted to give you my heart. What would you have done then? I can't talk to you. No, I can't. You've estranged yourself from me by doing this. Why? Why?
I want to make you suffer just as how you made me suffer. Feel your heart tear as you see my pain. Feel it as the pain becomes yours too. This is what you've done to me. I'm weak. I gave you my energy. I gave you my love. You took it but refused to give back enough in return, enough to sustain me. Now I'm drained and I fall. But you are not there to catch me like you promised for you are the one who pushed me. You shoved me from behind. How could I see it coming? I wasn't prepared. Now I fall and am too weak to get up. I lay here, staring up. How could you? I believed you. Was every word you said a lie? How could it ever be true now? If it was, I would not be here on the ground with no one to save me but myself. But I cannot do that. I am too broken and my heart is wounded beyond repair. It cries out for help. Can you hear it? How can you help it when you're the one who hurt it so badly? The poor thing, it's vulnerable and I must try my best to save it. You have failed. I put up steel walls around it. I lock it in. 'No one will hurt you anymore,' I assure it. 'Let your emotions be sealed within. They are safe there. Only the pain that numbs you seeps through those walls. I feel it and it numbs me too.'
See what you've done, my "guardian angel"? See the hurt that you've caused this heart for which you so asked? I cannot talk to you again. You've estranged yourself and I am too worn. I must go away from you and never show my feelings. I am too hurt and vulnerable. I must protect myself. You've betrayed my trust. How can I show you my emotions again? I am afraid to. You were special to me. There was none other like you. But, now, I see. You're just like everyone else out there. I was bare in front of you and this is what you did... My heart is wounded... It hurts...