Oh, that's how it is, is it?

You offer yourself to someone, because you've both in the same situation, he just broke up with his long term girlfriend, and your boyfriend just dumped you. So, what do you do when that person goes off and meets someone? When they clearly stated to you, they're fed up of relationships and they just want some fun?

It just makes me feel worthless, used and unwanted when they were looking for a relationship behind my back. I would have rather him just told me that he wanted a relationship with some else. But then again he is a man, take until he finds somebody he actually wanted to be with, the selfish bastard.

Why do men treat me like this? Like I'm just some thing that can be cast away when it is no longer useful to them? Like a used condom, even if that is a crude comparison, I still feel like that.

Is it me? Do I give out 'use me' rays? Or what? Because even though I did agree I just wanted some fun too, i do have feelings, I'm still a human-being for christ sake! Anybody would thing I'm just a toy.

Well guess what? I have news for them, if people think they can use me like that and play with my heart/ feelings, then they are just plain wrong! I dare them to try it, anyone to try it, and see where it gets them because that is damn right cruel to treat someone like that.

Men annoy me!

And what's more, my parents are now trying to control my life. Telling me where I can and can't go for university! The cheek! They're aren't even paying for it! What the fuck really? And they wonder why I rebel as much as I do. No wonder why I'm not little miss perfect anymore. Drugs, Alcohol and Sex for me. See how people like that!

Screw you! I'll live my life how ever god damn way I want, I'm 18 for god sake!

Think they can control me, think again.

Just wait and see what comes next...