War In The Mind

I sit an think about my life

Whats wrong with me keeping the faith that everything gon be alright?

The people around me, they scared, they run from life

Do they know faith? No that's what I say but..

Who am I to say that? What right do I have?

I don't...why..do I do what they do?

Do I run away from life too? I can say no but...

Deep down I know...this woman who is me she fears...

She fears her reality and she fears her dream world

She fears love and she fears the hatred she sees but...

Wait...how can that be?

How can that be when shes the child of a king who taught her different

By different I don't mean naturally but SUPERnaturally

Supernatural like...the spirit...in which God happens to be...

He spoke and told me that he has not given me the spirit of fear...

So where is my mind? Its supposed to be sound and peace?

He gave me that too...

So help me to figure out the why, the where, the when, the how....

Why do I do this and how do I change this and that?

When will my life be like this

Where is this journey taking me?

I guess that makes me human cuz.....

I have the same questions as everyone else in this world...wait...

How can THAT be when im not part of this world...im not them...

Im a believer....right? hmm.....

These are the thoughts that plague me

The nights that keep me up when im supposed to be sleep

Im confused cuz my reality and my dreams feel like they are one

Synonymous to me but they don't mean the same thing

I ask myself what im supposed to do but..

All I see is people looking at me

So I have to be who?

I have to be me...but who am i?

I thought I was supposed to know...

There it goes again..stupid I feel....

Stupid I feel because I ought to know whats real

WHERE are the answers to these questions?

The answers im looking for...the answers your looking for...

The answers we are looking for...

After all this time warring in my mind I finally know where

I finally know who...one place...one man...one God...one name....

And that name? is Jesus