My Depression

here's a look at how my mind works during a "downswing". originally posted to WDC in 2006

Every day it gets harder just to get out of bed,
to make my life better, not to simply end it all.
I don’t know why I feel this way.
Don’t know why I think the way I do.
I just wish I could change it all.
I just wish I would fade away.

Thoughts running through my mind
constantly driving me insane.
Dreams of my own destruction
I don’t wanna play these little games.
I don’t know why I feel this way.
I don’t know why I think the way I do.
I just wish I could change it all.
I just wish I could fade away.

When I stop to think it over,
there really are people here for me;
and that makes these thoughts unbearable;
I'm still afraid to let them see.
I don’t know why I feel this way.
I don’t know why I think the way I do.
I just wish I could end it all.
I just wish I would fade away.

Oh, God, if I could end it all
please just let me fade away.