A poem about the strains in a friendship |
With multi-media fragmentation, You can place your echoed dreams On a white-washed canvas. There, an emotional distance with An intentionally-limited color palette. Godfather Toad doffs his dusty old top hat and addresses the council of animals. They shuffle in their suits and shoes to hear his wisdom-words. Dressed in Mexican Market dresses with intricate patterns on white cloth, you Illustrate their world for those on the Outside who cannot understand. The talking animals with suits and shoes. Mixed materials flattened on a white plain. Three dimensional substances illusioned as two dimensions in the service of an illusion of depth. There is sometimes a void of silence that rests between us. Between our eyes. Between our ears. Between our twitching lips. Between the spaces words would travel through. Behind your angry words a sordid pain that will not reveal itself. A fear, a sadness that falls deep into the canyons of your depth, into The somber shadows you bare encased in a pretty-fleshed frame. Behind your eyes the land of the talking animals with big 1930’s eyes. They have their crazy adventures in the Child-light of some living past. They cavort in an innocence graced with the wisdom of the human world that encroaches From Outside. The lonely silence that washes us in an undertow, Sweeping us to depths of dream, Sweeping us in the dark currents Of the Black Ocean Beneath the World. Between our silence a tacit understanding, Tinged with a fear of The peeling of protective covering. Calico Cats with white gloves. They are spiritually kindred: Rainbowed patches of smooth soft fur And cloth shields to protect the probing touch. White cloth gloves to cover milky hands touched with liver spots. Dark eyes staring with youthful love from nests of lines in once-smooth skin. You’ve made your way in adulthood, Pushing on with a child’s ideal Of living like those with less, Of slumming it in an affectation Of Bohemian bravado, Letting your adventures ride In a tidal swell of alcohol en excess. Letting it wash you onto some cold shore Tinged with the rays of dawn, Your skull swirling with a whirlpool Of inner maelstrom. Letting it drain down to the spongy marrow Of your bones till You are dry again. Traipsing about in a dance of a young girl’s enthusiasm for a time tinged red with rust. A Calico Cat with white gloves To protect fragile fingertips from the bloody Touch of rusted metal. And this cat, should she look inward and step through twilight Meadows to the land of the Talking Animals, Would find a folk better suited to her far more than suited Outsiders. 1930’s eyes, big and bold and beatific, Taking in the site of a young girl Trying to stave off the dusty red of oxidation That stains her white gloves And rouges her cheeks With the wash of ages. Once, I gave you a tall glass of water When you lay on your bed inebriated And semi-conscious. Gave you a cold drink from the tap To re-hydrate your booze-swelled brain So you might crawl out of bed the next morning Without a skull crushed in a giant’s iron hand. You’d only sipped a tenth of the water And I poured the rest down your kitchen sink, Knowing it was a thankless task I’d done for you, Since you’d never remember the next day. Slights would be remembered. Mistakes would be remembered. Misunderstandings remembered. And grudges would be held with Fire-forge contempt. There are spaces between us Words will not travel through. Behind your angry words a sordid pain that will not reveal itself. Your happy grin to others: Mixed materials flattened on a white plain. Three dimensional substances illusioned as two dimensions in the service of an illusion of depth. I have seen the dark deep beneath And know it from my own experiences For deeper truth. Wounded animals know each other by their eyes: big and bold and beatific. There is a sad love that comes through understanding pain, But sometimes the most painful thing Is to forgive. Between our silence a tacit understanding, Tinged with a fear of The peeling off of protective covering. |