Aunty Zero

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They say I'm tough
Made of stern stuff
But in my head I'll never be strong enough.

They say I can do anything
I can fly like a bird on the wing
But in my heart I'm less than nothing.

They say my life is an inspiration
That I deserve a standing ovation
But my soul is filled with frustration.

They say others' yardsticks can't measure
What I have to offer is a rare treasure
But I think I bring pressure, not pleasure.

I'm a menopausal virgin
The game of love I never could win
Anti-hero? Ha ha, let's just say I'm Aunty Zero.

Aunty Zero, can't be a Mommy
Aunty Zero, can't care for a pet or baby
Aunty Zero, don't mean anything to anybody.

Even my mother didn't care for me
I was just a doll or trophy
A toy to play, a prize to display
Not a person, a daughter - just a stray.

I fear loneliness
I fear being dependent
Can't tidy up the mess
Anger, fear, guilt, resentment.

Is what I feel real
or am I making it up
My imagination sees you dismiss me
with a 'yup, dear, yup.'

Coz I'm Aunty Zero - not seen or heard
Just the one who is a wee bit weird
I'm Aunty Zero - and it's just as I feared
To you my audience, I'm not endeared.

I'm Aunty Zero, I'll fade away
It won't matter to anyone if I go or stay.

"Rhythms & Writing: Official WDC Contest" 

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