a human contradiction

yes, my friends I am the human contradiction

I walk alone at night, but in the day I reside and laugh with my friends
We talk about things I don’t agree with, but I talk anyways
I believe that you should have your own opinions, but somehow mine end up getting lost in the elusive translation

I know there is such a thing as true love, I long for it everyday, spending my days with my head in the stars, dreaming, dreaming, dreaming, that I may finds the person who will hold me close to their chest, and kiss me on my neck why they softly purr their heart out to me
But still I pursue the girls that give the best head

I am very shy and quiet, I keep my thoughts and ideas to myself unless someone ask me other wise, keeping my head in books and trying to decipher life’s clever mysteries,
But at the right moment I am louder than bombs, I shall yell, scream, dance, and parade when I get the whim

I love the idea that I am a poet, my words and my thoughts swirl on a blank sheet of paper and I decorate it with thoughts, ideas and stories, spreading the word of love and hate, rhyme and reason through pages
But I’m still a musician at heart, there is so much emotions without words complicating them, what are words when notes jump to your ears and sound so much sweeter to hear than words could ever be

I live a life in seclusion, locked up inside my own mind, looking at things in every perspective, seeing if I can really change things by just thinking them, I keep to my own as a walk down lonely roads
But still I value my friendship with people most of all, there is nothing better than having a love for your friends and feeling it right back at you, its as if your not alone in this morose world of lame sarcasm and wit

I live life dangerously, taking as many chances as possible, feeling an adrenaline rush of blood to my veins, I go run through these crowded fields never looking back at the disgusted faces that stare at me, death is not evil, death is peace, death is my friend and we are always constantly flirting with each other
But I’m still scared shitless of going to the dentist office, or going up to the attic without a flashlight

I hate technology with a passion, millions of kids spending their days in front of computers with TV’s for eyes, playing their stupid video games that they’ve been playing their whole childhood and adult life, trying to brake away from a reality so beautiful as this one has to be a crime
But still I spend to many wasted hours in front of an computer trying to find out why John Lennon was really killed

I want to live a life filled with happiness, of the beauty that surrounds me, I want to laugh and fill my lungs with rich oxygen, I want to sleep on the soft grass and stare at the moon and its stars, and live my life full of wonder,
But still the bad things in life seem to get me down more than the beauty seems to bring me up

Oh! The contradiction in every human heart is so magnificent and dumbfounding that you must stare at it for a long time…………….oh, wait American idol is on, fuck this, I got shit to watch