The Elegy of Love

As my heart yearns to be near you,
my mind tells me not to.
Into my mind thoughts of you come unbidden.
As I try to fight them away,
Against my will,
It seems as if we just weren't meant to be.
Looking up into the night sky,
I count the millions of burning orbs,
matching each one with a reason why I love you
and then, I run out of stars.
My eyes get fogged up,
as a torrent of memories rush into my mind.
I suddenly think of the wilted red rose
lying in my dark cavernous cupboard.
It serves as a painful reminder that
long after a thing has lost it's outward beauty,
it still retains the power of emotions.
Though I cant express
the tremendous sorrow and regret in my heart,
my unsuppressed love grows everyday.
With the thought of your contagious smile in my mind,
I've moved on, or have I?
Perhaps i've understood the circumstances,
without really accepting them deep within
That's rather hard,
considering the fact that
acceptance comes only with submission.
But my heart feels like a ship,
on a storm-ridden sea,
fighting against the elements,
unwilling to give in...
but the wood will start creaking sooner or later.
As I grow further from you each day,
the day of our departure from
the Shores of Childhood comes closer.
I still need you,
i still feel you,
only difference is that now,
reality and dreams
have sadly changed places.
what keeps me going,
is the memory of that fateful rainy day,
when,sopping wet,
I looked into those eyes of yours,
and I drowned...
I felt like I fell from the highest mountain,
without any fear of the unknown...
I'm still falling,
only difference is,
now there's no one to catch me.
~SaMpUrNa~