I think I'm ready. At least I think I do. |
I think I'm ready, at least I think I am. I know who I am, but nobody else knows who I am and thats what I want to change. I'm tired of keeping everything a secret and always wishing it was different instead of making it different myself. I just want to scream to the top of my lungs and tell everybody the truth. I'm gay, and I accept it, but I'm afraid that nobody else will. I usually don't care what people think, but in this case, it's who I am, not what I do. I wouldn't care if someone called me a "slut" or a "whore," but if they discriminated against me being gay, I would have a problem with that when it doesnt concern them. I'm more afraid of the people that I do know of calling me bad names then the people that I don't know. I would expect them to understand and accept the idea that this is who I am and they support me. But if I expect it, and it ends up being opposite, I'm going to be more disappointed and frustrated. I'm afraid of losing my 'true" friends, even though I'm better off without them. I don't know what my first step is. I always break things out into steps if I ever become overwhelmed but for the first time, I don't know where to being. What is my first step? What should I do after the step? Help? |