You vs Him

I can feel the pain and anger
and all of my fear and hate
seeping from my heart
in a trail of blood red deliverance.

You knew my heart,
my body, soul, and mind.
And yet you ignored
the beauty I would bring you.

The stream flows out of my heart
and over my shoulders.
You walked away and left me to mourn
then came running back to pull me to my feet.

It trails down my arms
and over my hands.
I know I can't have you,
and it hurts deep inside.

It sifts through my fingers
and drips to the ground on drop at a time.
He came out of nowhere
to heal the would you'd created.

The drops soak into the Earth
and disappear forever.
He erased all the bad
and filled me with good.

He showed me a world
full of love and life.
He pushed you from my mind
with courteousy and respect.

He treats me like the one
he's waited for forever.
Enveloping me with trust
and sheltering me from pain.

Then comes the day
when you happen to walk by.
My mind spins in circles until...
I realize I feel nothing.

You are no longer teal to me
So I turn and this time,
it's me to walk away,
it's me to abuse your very existance.

I look at you and look at him
and realize neither is the other's equal.
You ignore when your happy,
You acknowledge when you're bored.

He proves his love to me
in significant and sublte ways.
And never shies away from
any part of me, body, soul, or mind.

My past involved solely you.
My future is solely him.