Refusal to change others and the desire to save oneself |
SAVING ME We were in love but we were poison too. You craved my love so much it tainted you. I tried to leave, you knocked me to the floor, then said you'd die if I walked out the door. I couldn't cry, I couldn't care, I didn't want to die. Should've saved you but I won't lie. I wanted life, I wanted love, but can't you see why I cannot stay and keep my soul alive. While you were burning, you called out my name. My tears weren't fast enough to douse the flame. Helpless, I watched you and our union melt too numb and cold, nothing was all I felt. I couldn't cry, I couldn't care, I didn't want to die. Couldn't save you and that's no lie. I wanted life, I wanted love, but now I know just why I couldn't stay and save my own life. My life before you is a dream right now. What was I thinking when I took the vow? Did I think I could just change your life or save you from your own destructive fire? I cry, I care, and now I will not die. Can't save a life until I save mine. I still want life and love but now I know if there's a next time, I must take it slow. If I ever choose to love someone again I know I can't repeat the same sins. I can forgive you but I'll not forget. I haven't finished living life just yet. I'll cry, I'll care, but I won't watch you die. Won't save your life until I save mine. Won't save a life. until I've saved mine. SWPoet Poem/Lyrics To those who enter abusive relationships in hopes of changing or fixing the other person. Two halves do not make a whole in a relationship, only two wholes can truly unite without harming each other. |