My love for someone and life I am living now. |
A New Day. I have a light that is lit. Only one other person in this world, can see this flame I carry inside me. I try to show them the beautiful things, inside my heart that is represented by this light I refer to. If only I were the man that they deserved me to be. There is a shimmering light that has been lit by them. This flame is a light of faith, hope, and love. I want to shine the light of this fire upon the world, I use this light to navigate my way around in this world now. Some days I am lost and carry this light high, to guide myself through the day. Some days, I am so drained emotionally , and I only carry its weight low, and beside me, when I feel that it may be going out. Never wanting to let this smoldering fire to extinguish, I keep rekindling it by adding more pieces, of my heart to keep this fire burning. To allow the flames of a secret love to continue to burn. It is so hard to hold this candle of light, when no one else is allowed by me to see, the most beautiful thing I have held in my heart. It is the heaviest thing that I have held to myself. I have days when I fear that this light may only be for me, and that the other person who my fire burns for, may not carry a equal flame inside them, like the candle I carry for them. There are days when I use every ounce of my being, to search my soul for the strength to keep this candle held high. I can only pray that through faith, hope, and love that the day will come when the light from my candle can, shine upon them, and the world like a beacon only, equaled by the sunshine when it first breaks, the horizon to start a new day. NJH 7-29-08 |