My Minds Sanctuary

During the late hours of the night when sleep drifts upon me my mind begins to wander back to the place where only you and I exist. The love we make surrounds us while the ecstasy born cradled us into a heaven where only you and I have been. The love you share with me and the attention you give me I can only find when I am here with you.

Only in my fantasies where you are waiting for me - waiting to love me in all the ways you know others have neglected, which is many, waiting to devote your self to me to heal the deep penetrated unnoticeable wounds to my soul that others have created, finally making me whole again - do I finally find and receive the attention and love that I so desperately seek for every long moment of the day but can never seem to find until I am reunited with you.

The moments pass by in the long, long, never ending day and I grow cold. Within agonizing moment after moment my very self grows cold and numb, forgetting the feel of your touch that always brings me to life with a burning fire. I sit and wait as the seconds tick by, the sound of time passing rings in my ears, echoing. My eyes begin to coat over with the salty evidence of just how much I am in need of you. But I hold back because I know that my show of weakness would disappoint you.

When the day is through after what has felt like an never ending loop, I lay my head down on my pillow and clamp my eyes shut. Not a minute I want to waist with the time we will have together. And what a short time it is.

There you are, visible in front of me. Standing with a smile to let me know that you’ve been waiting for this moment too.