Saying Goodbye

There are so many things that I wish I could say, wish I had time for, wish that I could replay;
But as time ticks by and I keep growing older, there’s one thing in particular that I’m glad that I told you,
I love you, I need you forever by my side; you bring me happiness and a sense of pride.
But most of all when I look down deep within, I feel a loneliness knowing it all comes to an end.


Cause then I think about sadness like what if it were me, going off to bad places to serve my country,
Protecting the innocent, the weak and the lost; serving a God who had to die on a cross,
But it’s sad cause that God might one day get me killed, blown up by a murderer who just wanted the thrill,
The thrill of success in a holy war, knowing he’ll go to heaven for the family he tore
Apart, there is nothingness down deep inside, feeling lost and confused because your husband died.


And all you get in return, a little folded flag and the thought of one you loved in a body bag,
But now the thought is too much and every time you think, you break down, cry out, it drives you close to the brink.
You’ve lived life, you’ve loved and lost all the same, but trust in God, that loss will never bring you shame.
Cause the life that he lived, it was honest and right; he was one of the good guys and gave up a good fight.


And then I think backwards like if it was you and not me and I cry deep inside, the very thought, misery.
Maybe a man, late at night, who fell asleep at the wheel, jumps the curb, starts to swerve, the thought is just too real
Cause then the news that I get from the knock at the door, “Your wife is dead”, it’s too much and I drop to the floor
And I beg God, why did it have to be me, there was so much I could’ve, I should’ve…please!!!
Bring back my wife there’s so much left to give, I’d trade it all away for another chance for you to live.


Now our kids grow up without the love of their mother, not knowing how to show care, no love for self or another,
I’d walk in shadow and pain trying, for them to be strong; but without you, everything always seems to go wrong.
We’d live and we’d love, we’d learn and we’d fight; even when they go to bed and I kiss them goodnight,
I’d cry myself to sleep reminded of how you were gone, but I’d pray, God, for strength just to make it, go on.


There are so many things that I wish I could say; wish I had time for, wish that I could replay;
But as time ticks by and I keep growing older, there’s one thing in particular that I’m glad that I told you,
I love you, I need you and you’ll always be, in heart, mind, and soul mine throughout eternity.
I love you, I love you, I need you, I swear; through thick, thin, the rain storms, in sunshine I’ll be there.
This promise is for you for the rest of our days, even when times are tough, in the grayest of shades.

I love you.