Pain

I scream at the sky and fall to my knees. Each one of my tears, as it hits the ground, races away into the mud pit that is starting to form beneath the black sky. The rain mixes with the tears to the point that the two cannot be told apart. Like the pain that hides behind the mask no one will know that tears have fallen with the rain. Thoughts and memories swirl and tumble through my head each thought bringing forth its needle to prick my heart. With each memory my lungs gasp for air but all they find is the despair. My hands quiver and shake not knowing what next to do. My mind tries to let it all go but with each effort the pain buries its claws deeper and brings my mind back to the place of pain and anguish. Each day drags by and simple words cause the pain to push against the mask. A friend’s kind words, a text message, a hug from a family member only bring forth more pain. There is no escape from its clutches. It has grown too big and I can no longer fight it off. It will consume me and all that will remain is a shell filled with pain and anguish