Close Your Eyes

It's almost like you can't hear me
Like you can't see the truth on face
I can hear my sadness
My distance with every breath
What I say, it isn't art, or explanation
It isn't pity seeking, needy, or deprived
It is honesty that is usually hidden from plain sight
Exposed traditionally through weakness
Quietly waiting to wake you up

Can't you feel it coming?
That aching truth at the end
That agonizing fear and bewilderment
It's real, what you fear
There's nothing you can do about it

You don't know what happens when the lights go out
You only know you're gone from us
From your son
From your daughter
From your mother
Fathers, brothers
Sisters, friends, street corner strangers
Sunlight, blue moons, darkness
From me
From you
And there is absolutely nothing you can do
You are afraid

Afraid of the pain your absence could cause
Afraid of the loss everyone will feel
Afraid of losing everything you've ever known
Afraid of all the things you never said
Afraid of the anger you had spread
Afraid of the love that's left for dead
Afraid of the memories you'll never have
Angry because nobody ever told you why

Why does it have to be this way?
Why can't every life be saved?
Why would anyone put love and death in the same existence?
Who the hell would be that cruel?

Maybe because it's pretty to watch on T.V.
Maybe because we weren't supposed to care
Maybe because blind faith in what we've never seen can save us
Or maybe because nothing
Infinite dark filled with burning balls and frozen rocks

Don't believe in outer space
Don't believe in your own face
Don't believe it matters

It's all okay, she says so
Why ask why
Just hide from it
Glitter and unicorns
You can't fake it forever
I can't take your lies to me
Say you're going to the clouds
Say it doesn't matter
Say I'm wasting my time
Say it's pointless to try

While you dance around in pointlessness
Pointless plans
Meaning's dying
Feelings dying
You're dying
Now go to work
It's just pain
We can feel it later

I don't care about you
I don't want to know you
I'll make you believe you should stay away
I'm mean, angry, evil, and bitter
That way it won't hurt so much at the end
Let me alienate everyone
I'll be safe here, alone
Safe from all the pain love brings
You can't hurt me now
Until you're forced to wake the fuck up

Look around at everyone else
Doing exactly the same
Handful groups
Family ties
Involuntary
Surviving
Living?
Are we living?

Don't say hi
That comes with goodbye
And nobody likes goodbyes
Because that's what the world needs
More walking dead
That's what the future needs
Arms length apathy
Nobody knows you
Do you know if I'm right?