A poem describing my fight with my 'emotions' |
The book lay open in the porch The mind races yonder The hands lay useless and futile The heart is in a wander What engulfs my thoughts? Oh where from do they come? These mindless broken emotions With lips entwined with a lullaby hum? The garden of roses with the soothing fragrance, The twinkling glitters of the stars? Or the painful nights of the yesteryears The memories of the scars? The arms of embrace hurting sore The lacerated body of pain? Or the knife of brute jabbing hard The painful bloody rain? Tired am I, the body scarred The unforgiving past of yore Haunts day in and haunts day out Searching for the door Of slumber-attacks in the middle of the night The visions that come enlarged Too late to stop the illusions of dark Unannounced, they have barged. Unto my life and my space Poisoning the light of my days They say “We’ll haunt and haunt and haunt Till the life in you stays." Upon their call I wake and vow Never to sleep again Tears rush up as I then cry “Till I am slain!” The lining silver comes at last The dark begins to fade Dawn breaks in, the sun creeps in And I lose my dread! But Alas! The dream lingers on The dirty vermin of the night “Will I be ever free?” I cry As tears fog my sight. The pain excruciate, the rhythm lost I wait for Death to come As my wounds, bloody and reeking Turns my body numb. |