Happiness

As I sat alone, I wondered if happiness would ever find me.

"Sad", "confused" and "lonely" - words which resembled my short, yet miserable life.

I wanted many questions answered, but there was no response, as the only thing that listened was the silence that filled the room in which I sat.

"Why did this happen?"
"Why don't people like me?" are only examples that are yet to be answered.

Happiness had eluded me for so many years, and it was only when I had given up on ever having those emotions, stirring inside my heart, I had the opportunity to meet happiness.

Happiness comes in many forms - laughter and jokes, but for me it was much more important.

I was given something I had only dreamt of - contentment and acceptance.

For once in my life, I was not judged on my appearance or strange personality - it was only after taking the time to know the inner-Brad,

The guy no one knows exists that this person had given me the greatest gift - "Happiness" - for they had accepted me into their life, despite all the skeletons and secrets I had in my closet.

In return, I gave them my attention and endless love.
Being in their presence made me a different person.

I could be myself and not hide behind the fake and superficial barrier of my "stand-by" personality.

I could relax and therefore felt contented that this was how life was meant to be.

Her smile, face and eyes melted my heart and "the look" simply gave me instant butterflies ; many people believe butterflies are a sign of love.

In my case, it was more than that. People fall in and out of love, but it is very rare to find such a strong attraction and actually be happy AND in love at the same time.

It was destiny - fate had brought us together and this was how our lives were meant to be lived - filled with respect, kindness, love and most importantly,
the ability to feel comfortable and therefore bringing the feeling
Of Happiness to both our lives.

05/09/03

Thanking K. for being my inspiration.


22/09/03 - Readers please note that I lost the love of my life on 20/09/03. After finding my girlfriend in bed with another guy, I ended the relationship then and there. I am now looking ahead, trying to mend the hurt of her betrayal which has left a hole in my heart and life. Why is life so cruel?

Thank you for reading.
Brad