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Is that snow?

Snow????

It's 35 degrees and precipitating at 10:10 p.m. It warms up and dries out on Friday so I shan't complain.

No deep thoughts. I'm upset so I need to distract myself.

So I watch this? In truth it's validating. My answer to today's 30dbc was blunt and without the usual color because I don't consider 'harmless' jokes harmless. Most of the folks here at WDC are majority members of their respective community and may not understand the anger of those who have been marginalized. And the anonymity of social media attacks hasn't made life better for many people.



This entry by Sinbad also helped: "MANAGEMENT FUNDA'S. ".......🤪" 

34 degrees at midnight.

39 degrees at noon and sunny.

I told Neva (edited): "I really like Maya Angelou's insight [about how the world goes on without us].

My travels were like work, one I mostly enjoyed; however, occasionally I needed a day to do little or nothing.

When I came home I would be on vacation.

This past year has messed that up. Without travel, home has become a cage. I want out.

When I get back to traveling I may have to take it slower with more days of rest. I just don't have the energy like before.

40 degrees at 7 p.m.

It should be liberating stating that I'm not doing well, that I'm totally adrift and part of me has given up caring. I don't even need worry that anyone will notice. No one visits except Bri and I talk to few people.

It's not that no one cares. I know better. Azir sent a message today from Kosovo; Nick the Swiss earlier this week from Costa Rica and Ann Maria last week from Estonia. Elle in NZ wrote a poem for me. But no one reads blogs anymore to check in on how people are doing. FB isn't much better.

So, let me say that I'm not doing well and leave it like that.

36 degrees at 8:39.

It will be warm enough tomorrow to open a window and keep it open till Sunday bedtime. My place needs airing out. I also desperately need to do a wash. Not everything can easily be washed out by hand.

Bri's sweet potato pie ... saw Billie Jo, Peter, Joel and Travis. She shares and cares.

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