From June 21 Onward

Mandatory Update

July 17, 2002

         Well, nothing much new...Again.
Just updating purely out of habit.
         Little by little, things get better.
Unnoticeably so at times. But better
nonetheless. My friends are behind me at
4am making an explosive out of tin-foil and
200 watercrackers. This brings me comfort. It
lets me know that the better parts of life are
always going to be there no matter what
happens to the best things.
         I think I've grown to accept that I'll
never be the same to her. She knows my
tears, pain, etc. I don't think she likes to
acknowledge it. But slowly, it matters less
and less to me. Not her. But the fact that the
past will never remanifest in my future. I've
learned to take joy in the fact that at least
something used to be there. The fact that
I even have such great memories of the way it
was makes the fact that it will never be again
easier to stand.
         Of course, daydreaming about the
past and the plans we had that never
happened because of this interuption will
never be the same as the actual experience. I
can't describe the way I felt. I'd never been so
happy in my life. It was a peak in my teenage
years, and now I'm going down the slope. In
fact, for all I know, I could be climbing to my
next summit. I just hope that the next
mountain will be somehwhere I can camp out
for a good long time.
         Once again, my innate ramblings have
carried an entry much farther than initially
intended. I'll force my self to end now.
Closure it provided with today's
recommended listening: She Cries by
East West. You probably haven't heard of
them. Go to www.powerjams.com. Get their
CD. Listen at least to this song. Whether
you're into hardcore rock or not, this song (one
of their more mellow ones) will sound good to
you. Trust me. And if you ARE into hardcore
rock, by all means listen to all of their songs!
They rock. Now I'm done with this promotion.
Goodbye again.

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         Final note: A friend of mine has just
joined Stories.com. carp is here. Visit
his portfolio and give him some R&R. :D (I'm
a blatant ad machine, aren't I?)

~ Dris ~