Personal Journal

Sinking Feeling

Oh Hell!
I found out today that it's highly likely I'll have to travel to Columbia, Maryland, for two months for work. I'm a little bit excited, but I'm also nervous about that notion a great deal. How do I pay bills when I'm gone for two months?
I'm not doing well financially, and frankly, I don't want to talk about it. Being gone, on the one hand, means I save money on gas and food and utilities, I suppose, and incidentals. But I have to handle a checking account from afar, which I'm not sure I'm smart enough to do.
I was just thinking about going and getting a second job because it's easier on my nerves when I know I have the additional income, but now I can't with this travel coming. Of course, I'll get some overtime, maybe a lot, and that'll make up for it, I suppose. Worrying never gets me anywhere, anyway. Get calm, get control, make smart choices...
I just shouldn't be in this much financial trouble at my level of salary, and that I am, almost all of it is my fault. It just makes me sick to look at my life in that state of financial decay. And that brings me down about myself.
This isn't going to be a good day, I think.

It is never too late to be what you might have been. -- George Eliot
Courage to start and willingness to keep everlasting at it are the requisites for success. -- Alonzo Newton Benn


It is never too late to be what you might have been. -- George Eliot
Courage to start and willingness to keep everlasting at it are the requisites for success. -- Alonzo Newton Benn