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MAY 28 ENTRY: What have you lost? The answer in one word: myself. The gas is running out, As I crank up the radio, To silence the voices in my head... The road seems infinitely finite, Grey, daunting, unforgiving. The picturesque view ended some miles back, No milestones to guide, No friendly passers-by. I turn left, then right, then left again, I don't know the right way anymore... One after another, A barrage of questions, decisions, A fork in the road, Followed by another. Questions, questions and more, Misleadingly look easy, mind boggling. They don't come alone, generally in a horde, One misstep, another fall. Why do they have to determine who I am? Why do I have to face them alone? "Is anybody out there? Is anybody listening? Does anybody really know..." The radio refuses to do the assigned task, As the voices return with the song Ear splitting. Memories submerge my aching heart, Crippling my mind, shredding my soul, The past haunts me, The present scares me, The future is unknown, I am lost... I want it to end, I yearn for the comfort of the blue light, But it isn't easy, I wish it was. I know I can't change the past, But I need closure. I am tired of trying to make sense of it, Of remembering it. The wounds are old, but fresh, The pain is a coffin of needles. I ache for home, I sigh, for I don't know the way, Back or forward... The lyrics mentioned are from the song "Holding on and Letting go" by Ross Copperman |
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