Always With Me

I’m trying hard not to think about you now but I just can’t help it.
My mind keeps coming back to the happiness that you brought into my life.
The smiles that you brought to my face that I thought would never fade, that have vanished and are no more than a mere memory.
I thought I loved you.
I thought you were the one.
But funny how I was wrong, or was I?
I close my eyes and hope to wake up sometime in the past when you and I were us.
I laugh at the sound of your voice but cry the instant it’s gone.
I wrap my arms around me hoping to feel your warm embrace and the softness of your lips.
But all I feel is the cold wind blowing, blowing through my hair and the emptiness that resides inside me.
The darkness that surrounds me is only penetrated by a light that is but the tinniest of hopes that you will have me back.
You know just when I thought I had this figured out you turn on me and stab me in the back without any explanation.
Last night when I was driving home I passed a coffee shop and I can’t keep my mind from you.
Back in these lonely places where we had all these wonderful conversations I feel like I can’t go on.
I can run from you but regardless of what I choose I loose.
But that’s the price I pay for falling utterly and hopelessly in love with you.
I’m just a girl who loves you.
Loves you unconditionally but you don’t care.
You just turn your back on me and walk into the fading sunset.
If I could reverse time I would.
I would make things right between you and me and forever we could be.
I love you now and I will always love you.
Remember me in our time of absence and think of me often.
I hope that until we see each other again that you will come to realize that I truly do love you.