it's coming back

I feel it coming back
The pain
The terror
Most of all the darkness
It's taking over my body a little at a time
My eyes are getting heavier
My body getting colder
I'm afraid my life is getting shorter
I can feel it
When I look into the mirror I can see it in my icy blue eyes
Which are turning gray
Because they to can feel the pain
The hurt and darkness coming
I'm getting weaker as the time goes on
I just want to be alone
I don't want to see anyone
I lay in the darkness crying all night
My eyes are heavy and red when the morning comes
The darkness
The hurt and the pain has come
I stop eating
I can barely move from being so weak
From my own misery
I go through this all the time
I have fought it
And won but now it has hit me hard
T-o hard that I can't even fit back
So I know my time has come
To leave this horrible world
To be with the one that sends the pain and darkness to me
I don't want to but I feel like I have no choice
I can't move on I can barely move
I just can't take it anymore
Just take me now
Make it fast
Make me invisible forever
Make me no more