10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind |
My organ throbbed love for fire red hair, a cherub who could not conceive her reflection, a devilish grin on pottery-glazed cheeks -- matter of fact ignored blue piercing her green when she openly spoke to a crow. and when we hit a smoky Lake Superior with that college clan who drank and dared to bare skin, one sweater castoff... yours, the only one who stripped to panties, when I shoved off on a long dark shore, defeated. I didn’t want to share you. I didn’t want to know if the yip, yip, yipping jackals owned your body in moonlight... until I realized: too severe, stern, stoic, an unknowable, self-protective wall of man, too afraid to go naked with you, risk their judgement again that night I lost you to tumbling waves drowning out a spirited animal baying. I didn’t sacrifice and freeze virgin skin in ice black air -- flesh dedicated only to entwine another soul's warm container, not be a public spectacle. yet, not immoral, but not my vision for you. and, had I known we'd never table together again... who knows? I rejected myself, not you that night, in pursuant days of abstinence and regret and replayed scenarios -- cliché. I hope life gave everything you wanted. me... not so certain, as this quandary might show, still perplexed. 2.16.22 49 lines of long free verse she skinny dipped. I didn't. No one else did. I wish I had. How could I? Not so much as a bare toe tested those waters back then. |