Life as we know it sucks

Don't go away

Current Mood: depressed

Current Music: Don't Go Away - Oasis

3-8-03
I'm beginning to become hopeless. Because, I am so depressed. So depressed. I'm falling again . . . deep . . . I was reaching serenity and then this had to happen. Jacob had to happen. And for falling so in love with an impossible prospect, I am now paying for it. He's lost complete interest. We're just "friends," if that. But - what he doesn't understand is that I'm still in love with him. I am in love with him. Jacob.

He's the only guy I can picture myself with. Picture myself swooning for. NO ONE comes even fucking close to Jacob. I don't think my feelings for him will change . . . This makes me so depressed. I am writhing in my own deep angst. I was bestowed with "the one" for a few moments, and then it is taken from me forever. He has been placed just outside of my grasping hand. I lunge, miss, and recoil to my self-misery that binds me to my love for him. My God, help me in this mess.

. . . These are the last of my days.


Power for poison a poem for every rejection...