Marv's Mind

Loser Bitch

I'm a complete loser and should be punished for my transgressions! How could I be so weak? How could I have gone 6 days and then totally fucked it up on the 7th? I could blame Zoo for buying a pack on Saturday but I can't do that. He didn't shove the cigarette in my mouth or hold a gun to my head and say, "puff you loser bitch." I'm a cheater and a failure. I'm mad at myself and quite embarrassed. I couldn't even bring myself to post here or write in my journal this weekend because of the public disgrace. I should be hung out on Main Street for all WDComers to see. They should chunk stones at me and call me filthy names. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to run away and hide my face. I want to pull out my hair and I want stomp my feet and fall out on the ground in a big ass fit.

I'm starting again...

-Marv-