Snow Melt

The Victory Half Won

14 Qawl 164 B.E. - Thursday, December 6, 2007 about 10:54 AM PST

"The victory of success is half won when one gains the habit of setting goals and achieving them. Even the most tedious chore will become endurable as you parade through each day convinced that every task, no matter how menial or boring, brings you closer to fulfilling your dreams."
— Og Mandino: Author, The Greatest Salesman in the World.

This is a good quote for me to remember today or any day. I'm working on the setting goals part. My problem is discouragement. I get discouraged especially when I'm working on a goal and realize I have to stop and do something else. For the past nine months the stress and difficulties piled up. I'm not sure whether things are getting better or not. Maybe I just want the situation to change over night and it doesn't.

I've set goals. I'm working on achieving them. I keep working toward the goals. I keep working on the goals and my negative self-talk keeps telling me to just give up. Perhaps I'm making my life more difficult then what it actually needs to be. This morning started out good, even though I didn't get up as early as I wanted. Now I don't know how things are going. I think as soon as I finish this I'll get off line for a while, say some prayer and do some housework

I've decided to give up hope of every getting any help with the housework. I'll just do it without complaining and hope I have time to write afterward. Complaining doesn't do any good and it only makes matters worse. Complaining focuses on the negative. I need to focus on the positive.

Today is a full day, so I have to sweep the kitchen before we leave the house. I have to pick up some meds, take Mom for a blood test, get gas and stop at the grocery store. I suppose I should check the bank accounts before I leave, but I'm not going to do it. I'll check when I get back home.

I think my victory is half won, but I want it to be fully won. I'm impatient and everything is moving slowly. I keep thinking that I'm missing something somewhere that would help, but I can't see what.