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The End and The Beginning

12 Masa'il 164 B.E. - Sunday, December 23, 2007 about 9:25 AM PST

There are ends and beginnings coming up in the my life. The end of my 60th year occurs on December 24 somewhere between 11:45 PM and Midnight. I would like to do something different this year on my birthday, but I don't know what. I normally stay home on the 24th because I don't like to drive in last minute Christmas Shopping traffic. Actually I can't remember exactly what I did last year on my birthday. I normally don't celebrate on the 24th.

I found a .pdf file with 101 end of year questions, which I downloaded so I think I'll answer those questions. I haven't looked at them yet so I don't know what they ask, but that sounds like a good blog entry. I have two blogs I'm attempting to make money off and have to post at least every other day.

I'd like to have some coffee for my birthday. I haven't had coffee for about three or four days. I'm drinking hot tea, but it doesn't take the place of a hot cup of coffee. The weird thing is that when the coffee maker is heating water, I smell coffee. I could be going through caffeine withdrawal or it could be my over active imagination.

The end of 2007 approaches and the beginning of 2008, which means there is about three months until Naw-Ruz. Usually I use the time to evaluate my goals and prepare goals for the coming year. I can't say 2007 was a good year, I can't judge whether 164 B.E. was good year until Naw-Ruz. I know my 60th year wasn't great. I'm looking forward to my 61st year being better.

Despite the fact that I'm a pessimist sometimes hope dies hard with me. It keeps fighting no matter what my self-talk says. Maybe I'm just not facing reality, but if this darkness I've encountered in the past year is reality I don't want to face it. Thinking back over my life the dark times have passed. I don't remember them lasting for a year, but at my age one can expect a senior moment every so often.

The wonderful thing about endings are the new beginning that come afterwards.