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Truth hurts...a lot

Some people prefer to know the truth on some matters, I don’t at least not when it’s right in front of me. If I haven’t seen it, maybe I don’t want to see it, cal it an escape plan but it works for me and as much as I doesn’t change the way things are it helps me cope. It’s easier to laugh and pretend things are ok for sometime before I figure out how to work them out than to cry and be too depressed to do something about it. Today I told a friend about the call I made yesterday. I knew I should have kept my mouth shut-not that I listen to my conscience- but I still did it. Do I even have to mention the earful I got? Well not that I blame him, in his position I would have done the same thing but what harm does spending some time with someone I had and still have a crush on do? It’s not like we’re getting married or something. I need some fun and excitement in my life right now which I will welcome then worry about later. I have some reservations about the whole visit myself but what’s done is done and I can’t and won’t undo it. I brought this on myself and I will not spoil it by having regrets, it doesn’t do me any good. So far this week has been really good, it would have been even better if I did not have a cold but hey my voice sounds great. I think I’ll even try karaoke and see how it goes. Tell you what lets make a deal, no more regrets, no more worries at least until the end of this week whoever wins gets to order me around for a whole day, I’ll do everything that you say-except maybe jump off a 10-storey or more building- You rule. How does that sound?