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Rated: 13+ · Book · Experience · #2223922
A tentative blog to test the temperature.
Ten years ago I was writing several blogs on various subjects - F1 motor racing, Music, Classic Cars, Great Romances and, most crushingly, a personal journal that included my thoughts on America, memories of England and Africa, opinion, humour, writing and anything else that occurred. It all became too much (I was attempting to update the journal every day) and I collapsed, exhausted and thoroughly disillusioned in the end.

So this blog is indeed a Toe in the Water, a place to document my thoughts in and on WdC but with a determination not to get sucked into the blog whirlpool ever again. Here's hoping.


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January 3, 2024 at 9:56am
January 3, 2024 at 9:56am
#1061790
Reading Newsletters makes me ponder on those who seem to spend their lives making up wise-sounding quotations for the rest of us.
December 26, 2023 at 8:16pm
December 26, 2023 at 8:16pm
#1061457
I must admit that I have a good feeling about 2024. This is in sharp contrast to my feelings about the early years of the 2020s - and I turned out to be right about them. Add that to the fact that I'm rarely optimistic in my view of the future, and I think it's entirely possible that we'll see an improvement in the coming year. If nothing else, it'll make a change.
December 18, 2023 at 9:21am
December 18, 2023 at 9:21am
#1061127
An Uplifting Vision

One of the greatest blessings in life is to be happy in one’s work. Far too many of us toil away at jobs we tolerate so that we can survive to work another day, and few indeed are those lucky enough to be paid for what they enjoy doing. Just occasionally, however, we get to see someone involved in work they love and this gives us encouragement to know that it’s possible at least.

There is one instance of this that I remember with perfect clarity, a sight so unexpected and heartwarming that it still makes me smile to remember it. It was set in a time long ago when trucks were starting to acquire those audible warnings broadcast whenever they reversed. The designers of this addition to modern conveniences had not yet decided upon an acceptable standard for the thing, and so we were subjected to a range of truck announcements, some in words (“Caution! I am reversing”) or musical sounds. There were even those that used a simple tune to alert the unwary pedestrian. It was one of these that created the circumstances of the vignette that I remember so well.

It was in the town of Bedworth, just north of my ancestral city of Coventry, that I observed this little demonstration of pure joy. Beduff, as the locals pronounced it, was a solidly working class place, a dormitory town that supplied much of the muscle and labour for its neighbouring city. Its inhabitants were well known for their no-nonsense and down-to-earth character and attitude to life. At the time, I was working as a painter and decorator and had a large clientele amongst Bedworthians.

I was taking a smoke break outside the house I was working on when I heard the musical jingle of a garbage truck reversing some way down the street. It was a considerable distance from where I stood but, being the only activity going on in that quiet morning, my eye was attracted to the scene. Sure enough, there was a large, dirty and disreputable truck reversing slowly and producing its merry little warning of danger. In the middle of the street there was a garbage man. He was dressed as a garbage man should be, in steel-toed, heavy boots, thick clothing against the cold and a weighty black jacket, and he was dancing to the music of the vehicle behind him. His arms akimbo, he leapt and twirled with complete abandonment as he proceeded to the next bin to be collected.

In that moment, he was a visible expression of sheer joy in life, an unembarrassed explosion of happiness and carefree existence, an unfettered spirit released into freedom in spite of his apparent servitude in a mean and unenviable task. He made my day.

I know, of course, that he was performing for the amusement of his workmates, the driver and the other garbageman, that he was making a mockery of the silly alarm music of the truck. It was, in fact, typical of the humour of the English working class, a silent rebellion against the drudgery of everyday. But that does not negate the wonder of his innocent outburst of joy. Without an awareness of and disdain for the limitations of his world, he would never have thought of entertaining his mates with so hilarious a display.

It’s the existence amongst us of those that can rise above circumstances that gives us the ability to carry on. Life is never as bad as it may seem to be at times, and it’s the jokers among us that can lift us beyond despair.



Word count: 601
December 11, 2023 at 10:07am
December 11, 2023 at 10:07am
#1060874
Of Water

Many years ago I worked in the High Court of Zimbabwe. It was a very large and rambling building, constructed in the 1920s I'd guess, and contained several courts and many large offices. Wandering corridors connected the various parts and in some areas the building became a maze in which it was easy to get lost. Walls were thick and strong, ceilings very high and the floors were that polished, wear-resistant concrete that seems the norm for government buildings everywhere.

I was employed in the deceased estates and company liquidations section and, because there was so much space within the building, for most of my seven years there I had an office to myself. In those days I had dreams of becoming a great artist or a great writer (I had not yet decided which) and it became my habit to speed through the work so that I could have plenty of time for writing poetry or drawing afterwards. In time I could guarantee having a clear desk by about 11:00 am and would spend the rest of my day scribbling on the backs of old court reports or merely pondering and dreaming.

The powers that be eventually discovered that they could give me any amount of work and it would be done in a morning; they steadily increased my workload, perhaps to see whether I had any limits. And, not wishing to give up my free time, I accelerated to stay ahead. I worked there for seven years and, by the time I left, I must have been doing everyone else's work for them; certainly, they seemed to spend most of their days in sitting around and chatting. Perhaps that is just normal for any government department, however.

I remember a day when I was sitting back in my chair, musing, when I noticed a drop of water hanging from the ceiling just above me. There was no sign of how it had come to be there; it could have been condensation for the thick walls, narrow windows and large rooms kept the place pretty cool, or it may have been a leakage from some part of the plumbing in the floor above. But, whatever the reason for its appearance, it did not seem to grow or change. It just hung from the ceiling, being a water drop.

I watched that drop for a long time, expecting it to fall, but it did not. It seemed to have found its place in the world and have resolved to stay there forever. I pondered its existence and what it meant. After a time it dawned on me that there was much to be learned from this one drop of water and I wrote a poem about it. This was in about 1972 and is entirely reproduced from memory, so you will understand that it may have the odd word or two not quite as it was in the original; but it is as close as I can get:

O Water

Surface tension
Inner calm

Like a woman
The water drop
In grasping the holdless ceiling
Defies the sight and mind of man
Denies the fact of river
Lake and stream
Proposes cloudbed rivers borne
By windy banks
To seas and oceans
Of the sky

Your human laws
Of gravity and surface
Do not describe the natural fact
But only lend it reason


I do not subscribe to the idea that any artist should explain his work; it should stand alone for so it will have to do after his death. On this one occasion, however, I must mention that the word "describe" is not meant in its narrow sense of telling what something looks like. This is rather in the sense of "giving the complete story of" and comes very close in meaning to the word "circumscribe". And that's all I'm saying.



Line Count for the Poem: 16
Word Count for the whole essay: 643

December 7, 2023 at 10:30am
December 7, 2023 at 10:30am
#1060639
Polly Theism was a girl so fickle she lost count of her boyfriends.
December 1, 2023 at 7:27am
December 1, 2023 at 7:27am
#1060377
The Lightness of Being Right

Even when Andrea and I argue, it turns out we're both right. I used the word "obfusticate" and she said, "Don't you mean 'obfuscate'?" Google says they're both valid.
November 27, 2023 at 3:31pm
November 27, 2023 at 3:31pm
#1060215
What Did You Say?

I am in constant muttered conversation with an imaginary audience. If I had a part in a play, its name would be Aside.
November 21, 2023 at 12:37pm
November 21, 2023 at 12:37pm
#1059898
On the Tip of my Tongue

Have you ever had one of those times when everything you read or watch has massive inspiration for you? You enter a period where the whole environment seems loaded with impulse to get you writing and you desperately want to get busy because you know that what’s inside you is so ready that it will just spill out on the page and be brilliant. An interview with someone you admire has produced certain things that you’ve always thought but now frames it so clearly in your understanding that you have to include it in something that you write, or a flash of insight gives you a perspective that is so different you must produce a vehicle for it right now while it’s still hot.

And then you reach for something to hang it all on, to contain the wonderful feeling that threatens to be completely fleeting, and you realise you haven’t got a story to accommodate it. Just something simple and unchallenging, but you’re left with nothing. You try to construct something, a basic framework that can run with all you want to say, but it won’t come. Everything dissolves into banality and you’re left in a corner with grinding frustration and urge to create but no means to do so.

You’ve been there?

Welcome to my world.



Word count: 218
November 10, 2023 at 10:53am
November 10, 2023 at 10:53am
#1059255
An Apology

I decided that the blog was the best place to announce my cringing apology for my absence over the last four days. The blog has not had a post for a while and, if people miss my apology because they don’t read my blog, that seems fair retribution to me.

My craven excuse for absence is that I have been ill. Not quite at death’s door but it felt like it for a while. Like most things, it could be described as a bad cold or the flu, but I blame covid and its annoying habit of returning every now and again to annoy.

Anyway, the gist is that, when I feel like that, writing is beyond me. It’s hard to concentrate the mind when your body is leaking fluids at every orifice (love that word) and your belly is yelling in pain. I gave up without a fight and slept whenever I could.

So there you have it and now you know how easily WDC is abandoned by me when in the depths of debilitating illness. No sympathies required - I am recovered (mainly) now and have already written a poem of sorts for Express It In Eight this morning. And this little piece counts too, I guess.



Word count: 206
October 31, 2023 at 4:30pm
October 31, 2023 at 4:30pm
#1058372
It is my contention that the inventor of velcro had a cat. Think about it.

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