It's as if I'm starting over

Post Christmas

It's Monday night and my energy seems to be at an all time low. I am just so tired. it's been a busy few days. Last Thursday was Christmas Eve. My adopted parents are in town from Tennessee. Of course since they were coming from a warm state, we here in MN decided to throw them a Welcome Home snow storm. They braved the storm and came over and made lasagna (my wife's favorite ) for dinner. Before dinner we talked and laughed and after dinner we put on a Christmas movie and all four of us promptly fell asleep.
Earlier that day I was helping a good friend of mine get ready to go to the airport. She deals of a lot of anxiety around taking these trips and is dealing with terminal cancer so needs a little extra help. I myself have PTSD and deal with anxiety myself and although I can put it aside to help others, sometimes once helping is finished and there is finally a moment of quiet in the chaos, it overwhelms me.
Then the phone rings, it is a friend down the hall. She is missing her son, who died of an overdose a little more than a year ago. I am missing my son, who doesn't call nearly enough and I wonder what is happening in his life. It is not that I haven't reached out to him, he just doesn't seem to have time for me. It's too bad, because no matter what, I will always make time for him in my life.
I am not meaning to complain, my Christmas was wonderful and I was able to get Mitzi the gifts she wanted. I really felt like I had the spirit of giving this year, I didn't want anyone to feel left out. We were able to, along with Veronica really bless our friend and neighbor Dwaine with some gifts and a bed/couch, cleaning supplies, dishes etc.. that he really needed. I think he was really surprised that people cared that much. It's amazing what community can do when we pull together. So I'm ending on a positive note. I'll try and write a blurb tomorrow. I'm starting the 30 day blogging challenge Jan 1, so we'll see how that goes!!