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Fueled by Angst or Anger... calmed by lavender

Fueled by Angst or Anger

I need to vent, to rant, to rage... but when it's over?

I feel empty and weak like I do after vomiting or diarrhea.

Not a pretty image, but getting the poison out is important. How to do that without making a mess that others have to clean up is the key. Most people don't like it if you spit all over them.

But one can learn from expressing oneself. And others can learn as well.

Today I'm feeling a bit empty. Got one thing... just one thing... accomplished, but it was blocking me. Next!

And my anxiety isn't just generalized. I get that too. But this was more focused... and still is.

Anger? Constant bombardment eroding my human rights in America and around the world unnerves me. Most folks seem to be oblivious unless it affects them. But so much affects me as a marginalized person... and many of my friends are maginalized as well. A double whammy.

... calmed by lavender.

I stick my nose into flowers. Today it was daylilies and lavender. Soon it will be time for me to glean some as I walk. I only take a bit... leaving plenty for others (until the first frost looms, then it's all mine).

I also treated myself to a french-vanilla-lavender milkshake. It cost $4.50. My bank balance screams that I can afford this.

Will it calm me enough to buy a new computer? A new phone? Two trips abroad? 5 years ago I figured out how much I needed in case of emergency. I have many times that now to fall back on. I need to spend money. Not to make money... but to live instead of merely surviving.

As I listen to operatic music on Radio Bari (Italia) I should be thankful for the calming Rage.

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