My Reflections

5 years from now?

PROMPT September 2nd

Where do you see yourself five years from now? Be realistic, write about your writing plans, or other plans you may have.

5 years from now? Realistic? Ha-ha. I am not quite what to expect for next year little alone 5 years. 🤷‍♀️ Okay, I can humor myself and you. I can hope and dream big. So why not?

In a perfect world, I would be 100% healthy. I would be working a career that I love. Actually, I would own my own business. I would have the family I could only dream of. I would drive a purple older model Corvette. My house would be beautiful single story, spacious with plenty of storage and an indoor pool.

Wait! You said to be realistic. Oh, in that case, we had better tone that way down. Lol Unfortunately, we do not live in a perfect world. Besides, material things do not buy happiness. Hey, I can dream a little though.

I honestly don't know if I will be able to work anymore at this point. I am currently caring for my roommate. We are both living on her income because I am currently having health issues. If something happens to her, I don't know where I will be. It is scary to think of it.

I think part of my issue is I have always lived my life reactively and not proactively. Honestly, I am not sure I even know how to live proactively. I was raised kind of like that though. I have always been the one taking care of everyone else. I have never had a clear vision of what my life should be.

I here people talk about definite plans 5 or 10 years from now and it all seems so foreign to me. How can you be so certain when it comes to your future? On the other hand, I am sure it is better than living your life with no sense of direction.

I guess I have always lived life as it comes. I never made any very long term plans. In some ways, my life has been so uncertain, I have been afraid to. I hate failing. It would be easy to beat myself up over not being as successful as I would have liked to have been. However, I have had many different experiences as a result. I think everything I experienced happened for a reason. I still don't know what my future holds, but I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hand.

I have given myself some time to think about this entry today before posting it. I think I need to take some time to myself and reflect and really think about things. I am entering, menopause, the next stage of life. I am 44. I still have life to live as long as there is breath in me. Just because I have always lived one way does not mean I have to continue to live that way. I refuse to give up.

I know finding my way here to WDC, has been a blessing. I have rediscovered my love of writing. I would love to publish some kind of a book. Maybe that would be a great goal for my next 5 years. Staying alive is definitely on my agenda too. Lol