My Reflections

September 2021 questions my reality forum

PROMPTS FOR: SEPTEMBER 2021:

1. What one thing would you change about your childhood?
My parents would be less abusive, and my Dad would have shown more love and interest in me.

2. If you could go back to when you were a child, what would you say to yourself?
Seek God early with all your heart. Learn to hear his voice. Your parents voice is not always his voice.

3. What were the good things you remember from your childhood?
Christmas time was always family get together and fun. I enjoyed playing with my toys, drawing, and writing.

4. What is your biggest regret?
That my parents were not more supportive.

5. What was the best birthday you ever had?
When I turned 11.

6. What did you want to be when you were younger?
A teacher or a missionary or a foot doctor

7. What is your happiest memory?
When I graduated high school

8. What family traditions did you have as a child?
Going to grandma's house on the holidays. Christmas traditions were to read the Christmas story, sing a couple of Christmas songs, sing happy birthday to Jesus complete with cake, and then we would open our presents. Presents we're placed around a nativity scene as my parents didn't believe it was right to have a Christmas tree.

9. Where were you, 10 years, 5 years, and 1 year ago?
I’d honesty rather not think about where I was 10 years ago. I wasn't in the greatest place. 5 years ago was ok. My parents were still living. I was in a better place. A year ago, covid had struck and we still didn't have the vaccine. Life was very uncertain. Today I am doing better, but not where I want to be.

10. What mistakes have you learned from in the past?
I try to learn from all of them, some more than others.

11. What time in your life do you always want to remember?
I am still working towards that time and place.

12. What song holds special memories for you?
Swing Low Sweet Chariot - My grandma used to sing it to me while pushing me in my swing. My aunt was singing that song to her when she died.

13. What is your saddest memory?
I have a lot of these. I try not to dwell on that.

14. What has been the most difficult time in your life?
When my best friend’s mom died, my godson was taken away from us just about 3 months later, and we had to go to court to fight for custody of him and lost. Then 6 months after he was removed, I suffered some drama with my own family. I was pretty broken after all of this.

15. If you could relive one day over again, what day would it be?
I am not sure I would want to do any of it over again.

16. What has been the best year of/in your life?
Probably the year I graduated from high school

17. Who was your biggest influence growing up?
My mother

18. Has your family life changed since you were a child?
Yes

19. What was your favorite thing to do as a child?
Play

20. Have you said anything in the past that you wish you hadn’t?
Who hasn't? Lol


21. Did you enjoy school? What life lessons did you learn from your time there?
I can't say I enjoyed it, but there were days I’d rather be there than home. I think I learned more life lessons than I care to mention.

22. Did you find it easy to get along with your peers when you were growing up?
No

23. Did you ever experience bullying? How did you deal with this?
Yes! I would rather not talk about it.

24. What from your past do you wish you could do over?
I would have gone to college and pursued my dreams anyway even though my family discouraged it.

25. Have any past experiences shaped the fears and anxieties you have today?
Yes.

26. What has been the most challenging part of your life to date?
I pretty much answered this on number 14.

27. During your childhood did you ever feel let down by an adult?
All the time.

28. What were you doing this time last year?
Just trying to figure out how to make ends meet and survive the pandemic.

29. Did you ever witness anything in the past that you wish you hadn’t?
More than I care to mention.

30. What smell brings about good memories?
Roses

31. What was your favorite family vacation?
Going to Florida and deep sea fishing

32. Were there secrets in your family? How did that affect you?
Ouch! That one is a painful one. Yes! I would rather not discuss what it was and how it made me feel.

33. Does the way you were brought up influence the way you (will) bring up your children?
Yes

34. If you have siblings, how is your relationship with them? Has it changed now that you are an adult?
I don't have siblings.

35. What do you believe you deserve in life?
Whatever God sees fit to give me and I don't always deserve that either

36. What one thing have you always wished for?
To be a traveling singer

37. What skill have you always wanted to have?
Play the piano and guitar

38. What would you like to achieve in the next year?
Work to write and publish a book and to lose weight

39. What new hobbies would you like to try?
I really don't need any more hobbies, but cake decorating looks fun. I would also like to paint on canvas.

40. Where would you like to travel?
All over the United States.

41. How could your life be better?
I would have married the man of my dreams, had children with him, and actually had a career that I loved.

42. Is anything holding you back?
Sometimes I feel like it. My health issues do a lot.

43. What are your goals for this month?
"September goals" 

44. Is your life what you imagined it would be?
No!

45. What small change would you like to make to your life?
Don't know

46. What big change would you like to make to your life?
Don't know

47. What is your dream job?
Gospel Singer

48. What is your vision for the future? How will you get there?
I will get there one day at a time. I want to write and publish books.

49. What gives you hope?
My faith in Jesus

50. What do you fear most about the future?
Not having one

51. Does growing old scare you?
Sometimes, but it beats the alternative. I have decided I am going to be proud of my age. I am going to celebrate every birthday. Not everyone makes it to their next birthday. You never know when it will be your last.

52. You have decided to emigrate, where are you going to live?
England. Why not?

53. What do you want most out of life?
Successful love life

54. What one thing could you do today to help you achieve your goals?
What could you do to improve your finances in the future?
Keep writing. Pray.

55. Is anything holding you back from achieving your goals? How can you deal with it?my health. I am trying to lose weight and get answers from the doctors


56. Do you embrace the “new”?
Yes

57. Do you believe you deserve good things to happen to you? If not, why?
Yes

58. What new thing do you want to try in the next year?
Painting on a canvas

59. What is your life are you still trying to figure out?
Everything lol

60. What makes you happy about your life right now?
My faith in Jesus