PORCH PONDERINGS

Sleep

I have trouble sleeping, but a sleep study told the doctor I slept just fine. Whatever. I know I wake up sometimes every hour at night.

It's hard to be creative, to function normally, to be yourself, when you are sleep-deprived. Then after a time, you begin to wonder if this is the new you, the new normal. Yikes!

So the question is, what do you do when your new normal is so drastically different from what you always perceived? I always thought one needed to go to bed at a decent time. Hubby claims that is 8 PM. But you now find yourself in a situation where that has now changed. I go to bed at 11 PM most nights. That is better than when I first came from a consult about a sleep study.

Back almost a year ago, I was told to stay awake until 2 AM. Then get up at 7 AM. Gracious. And not to take naps, as that would disrupt your sleep at night. So from that nadir, I have worked back to 11 PM as bedtime. I still wake at least one or two times during the night.

I got to thinking about this again after reading a post on the newsfeed. Be glad if you don't have sleep problems. Believe me, there is nothing worse some nights than lying awake and watching the time slip away as you lie there, unable to go back to dreamland.

I think they use sleep deprivation as a torture technique. Sure is working on me. I'm just not sure who is holding me captive.