Porthole

Changing it or accept it

My blog entry in repsonse to Robert's response "Acceptable"  to "JAFBG"  prompt: Tell us something about yourself that you've had to learn to accept as just part of who you are.

My thoughts reflecting on myself:

Laziness: yep, but I'm not always okay with that aspect of myself. When I have no energy I just don't care and live with it.

Lack of ambition: I wax hot and cold. Regardless it's not sustainable and saps too much energy.

A biphasic sleep cycle: I've been wondering about this. I took a nap this evening and now I'm up at 11 pm. Until when? I don't know. If I could get into a routine... In Montana that may be 4-8 am and 6-10 pm. In Thailand or Costa Rica due to heat and rain. 12-4 am and 12-4 pm. Then again... maybe just taking naps when my energy is low.

Refusing to live with dogs: I don't refuse to live with them. Like kids, they are just high maintenance and I have no energy.

Bachelorhood: I'm resigned to it and a bit selfish with my time and energy.

An alcohol-positive lifestyle: I live without any alcohol. An unacceptable choice to many people here who only socialize when social relaxer is available in front of them.

Generic apathy: I tend to care too much about everything accept what others wish to impose on me.

Collector tendencies: Yep. Very much so. I tend to reuse and won't throw out until it's unusable. Clutter doesn't bother me.

Less-than-perfect health: I don't like anything that keeps me from traveling. Losing weight would make it easier for instance and when I do travel I lose weight; but exercise? Not happening.

The conscious decision not to change any of these attributes or many others: I'm uneasy with many of my choices because depression and lack of energy is a factor. Plus, they keep me from doing what I want at times.

Now I have my own blog entry! Thanks.

Conclusion: change it or accept it because at my old age anything less is just piling misery on misery. And that's a waste of time.

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