Seven Degrees Left of Center

Scare around my ear

Well ... I did it again and waited too long to write an entry. I admit the depression really got to me again. Since those closest to me unintentionally treat me like I am broken. I start to believe it is true. Ok, it is true. The 8-inch horseshoe scare around my ear reminds me. Expressly today because it itches. I am trying to remember simple things, like this blog. The blog serves as a reminder that I am moving forward. For example, today, I had to read some entries to remember why I started.

I fell into the rabbit hole of depression and self-pity. This is a difficult hole to climb out of, more difficult when "the want too" is missing. So, I admit, "I haven't wanted too." Today is a new day, but not an epiphany day. It is just a day to reflect on my mindset. It is a day to admit I feel comfortable being broken—but in a good way.

How do I make this more positive? Well, maybe by admitting it exists in the first place. I cannot change the earthquake that rattled my brain, but I can change my reactions to the current status of healing.

First, Be grateful I am not in a room watching cartoons, drooling, and wearing a diaper.
Second, Be easier on myself. Learning to read and write is a process. A never-ending process.
Third, Stop trying to remember yesterday and live for today.

Three goals that seem simple. Right?
I have sent them into the universe. Like seeds in a garden, I need to nurture them to get them to grow.

Thank you for reading this blog and any prayers and positive energy sent this way.