Sisyphean Attempts at Self-Improvement

Haunted (And I Don't Even Care)

I’m so tired
         ... of constantly evaluating my failings
                   ... of anxiously anticipating all of my inadequacies.
                             ... of being told that I have so much potential,
                                 but knowing that I’ll never live up to
                                 the most modest of hopes and dreams.
Apathy now rules in empathy’s domain, and I can’t even be bothered to care.
I’m numb to the outcomes in my own life.


the days are so long
haunted by imperfections
but nights are longer


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Line Count: 3
Word Count: 74

Written For: "Cards Against Authors" 

Prompts (Week 4):
         Prompt Card: You are suffering from Altschmerz (weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had—the same boring flaws and anxieties you’ve been gnawing on for years, which makes you numb to them, and they're no longer interesting to think about.)
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         Wild Card: Soar, Footprint (You only need to choose one word to use)

Form: Haibun