The Personal Chronicles of a Teenage Boy

Youth

Growing up is certainly difficult. Again I must compare myself to Holden Caulfied. That character fought so hard to remain young and innocent, but eventually was forced to accept life with a nervous breakdown. I feel a lot like him. I know that throughout literature, the innocent are swallowed by reality, so I must prevent that.
I feel as though I'm too young inside for what I'm supposed to be doing. I mean, college is a huge step, and it's less than two years away! I'm just being hit with so many things at once. I can handle all my schoolwork. Mentally I'm more than my age, but emotionally, I am much younger.
College used to be something to worry about in years to come, but now, it's suddenly very close. I don't know how to make the decisions that are coming, the ones that will affect the rest of my life. I wish someone could help me, but I know this is something I must face alone.