Its merely me, when I feel I need to say something, and I know no one will listen. |
I guess I should explain to those of you who might read this daily, why I've stopped writing. In short, I've lost a lot within a month, including a very close friend who died in a car accident over the Holiday break, and my health... You would think, after a tragedy like that, but no, I don't even enjoy talking about it...it upsets me that much. I'm just trying to cope, now, but I might post a couple of my stories for kicks....but They're a bit too morbid for nearly all my readers except myself and a couple other sickos. Nonetheless it will come eventually. Other than all thats happened, mentally I feel alright. I've probably drawn more than I normally do, but barely any writing came out of it that didn't sound....sincere, or wasn't repetitive. I guess the best, the most true, the statement millions, like I, have said too late..., I love you Teanna, always have, always will, and I will never stop missing you sweety.
I am going to have to apologize, though I know he'll never see this, because I know I've been testing his affections to the limits. I just wish sometimes, people would understand everything thats hurting me right now, that I don't spend time doing anything but work or worry. Sorry sweety. If you do read this (I don't even know if you have the link to my account) please forgive me. I'm trying. |