Chaotic Meanderings

April 2002

April 9, 2002
I feel it is time to start a journal, diary, muse... with no perticular time or day that entries will be added, but when the need is inside of me to share my thoughts and feeling, or just jot them down for myself, to remind me of what I think I should remember, or even hope to forget.
Today, it is raining, and I have a sick little boy home from school. At the moment the house is quiet, but I know, as most parents do, this is not a normal or lasting state for a home with active, growing children. In our home, I am a single parent. We live to far from my childrens father for him to be a daily, physical part of their lives. I moved us to the country life in December of 2001. After a year of separation, divorce and family counceling, I weighed our pros and cons of making a move from my birth/hometown, (which is also a growing military town, though I was never military), into the country. My kids seem to enjoy this move, for the most part, but also miss friends and family.
Son calling me... saving so I don't loose this... back later... sigh...

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April 10, 2002
Now that I have this set up the way is it made to be, it makes much more sence. Thanks Story.Com for doing all the work for me. Now if I can just follow dirrections the first time.....
Anyway, I never got back to this yesterday. Kid(s), life and things kept me away. Like I have said, just another day in paradise. I wouldn't have it any other way... (well, one thing different would be that I was also with the one *I* love, but as far as raising my kids as best I can, that would not change).
Dalton was feeling better before nightfall and boucing off the walls again, jabbering a mile a minute and asking upteen million questions so he went to school today. Sigh....
I have been reading/rating others creations and dreaming about how nice it would be to go to the convention, but telling myself, with four kids, that is not a good finacial move. It will be summertime, and the kids will be home, plus back to school clothes and supplies. It is a never ending list, and I am doing this on a small budget because I want to be home with my kids, be where they can find me. We only have them for a little part of our lives, then they grow, become their own persons and move on. I want to enjoy every moment that I can of the time they are with me. I will be alone soon enough, to find things for me to do, alone.
Sigh.... still would be nice to be around adults once in a while, but I am mostly a hermit, so I survive.
Now.... what do I fix for supper?