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being right has never felt so bad

jeudi le 25 de juillet 2002

I was right about AM, he is a player. Remember the volunteer that used to be a cheerleader..well yesterday when i left she and him talked and today when i called her AM had found her on AIM and she had been talking to him for 2 hours. But see I'm not mad at her at all...I mean why would I be shes super nice. Oh and AM is 18 not 21...I just assumed that he was 21. I'm just mad at him because if he wasnt interested then why in the hell did he have to flirt. Its a complete waste of my time and my feelings. Like I told Jessy....if he just was gonna mess with me why couldnt he have just left me alone. Can u believe that today I actually started to distance myself from him and then i got pulled in his slipperey web again but now i'm never going back in. all that crap about how i would look "cool" with light eyes. What a whole load of B.S. Can u belive I wasted a tear over him? He's not worth it. Like i've told all my friends if the younger borther is a player than u know the older one has to be too cuz where do u think the younger one learned it from?

but i'm really happy for Jen (the volunteer that was a cheerleader) and I'm not going to let this ruin the absolutely tiny starting out friendship we are having. But man when she told me she was talking to him i think my heart just receded even deeper into the nothingness in my chest. I have no heart.